Those who
know me pretty well, know that I love rafting. I love the thrill, the terror,
and the slow, winding parts. I have several rafting stories, including one
where a wave almost carried me away from my raft and down a series of rough
rapids by myself. I was sixteen.
Since then,
and because I love river rafting, I have thought a lot about the nature of fast
running water. The best rivers have many cataracts. According to my fat dictionary, (Webster's New Twentieth
Century Dictionary of the English Language Unabridged, 1956) a cataract is
"a great rail of water over a precipice; a cascade upon a great
scale."
Rafters face
cataracts regularly. These days, most rivers are well mapped, so a rafter knows
what's coming, though they may not know how to negotiate it safely. Frequently,
I would blissfully enjoy being tossed around in a river, then suddenly a hear a
roar in the distance. The river was about to become much more dangerous than I
had expected.
Then what do
you do?
Call for a
helicopter? Go back?
Many rivers
– at least those worth rafting – flow through deep canyons where there are no
roads, no cell phone reception, and no helicopter landing sites.
The only way
through cataracts on a river is through them.
Another
definition of cataracts is "in medicine and surgery, an opacity of the
lens, or its capsule; a disorder of the eye, by which its pupil, which is usually
black and transparent, becomes colored and opaque."
Cataracts –
that opacity in our eyes – are a fact of life for the silvering crowd.
This month I
had two cataract surgeries: one for the right eye, and a separate one for the
left eye.
When I met
with the surgeon, I asked what really causes cataracts. He said,
"Aging."
"No,
but really," I persisted. "Is it caused by high altitude? By less
oxygen in the air? By genes?"
"Really,"
he persisted back, "it's caused by aging."
A quick look
at Google shows me the truth. "The median age of a patient undergoing cataract
surgery is now 65, … In 2004, the average age was around 73 to 75."
I presume
that we are not getting this surgery at a younger age because of our bad
behavior as youths, but rather because cataracts are being detected sooner, and
people are agreeing to surgery more readily. Right now, the improvements in
cataract surgery, like many things in medicine, are increasing phenomenally.
Good vision
is vital to independent and healthy lives in our current 2020 times. We drive
around complicated and heavy machines at very fast speeds every day. Many of us
work at a computer station part of our day, which requires decent vision. Most
of us use cell phones now, which use teeny, tiny writing to cram a lot of
information onto a teeny, tiny screen.
About half
of us in the retirement population will get cataracts, and most will get
surgery to correct it. As I mentioned my surgery to friends, acquaintances, and strangers on the street, I
discovered that many had already had the surgery. They told me that colors
would suddenly be vibrant again.
What they
did not tell me – and I'm sharing today with the rest of you, you lucky saps –
is the baby shampoo cleansing of your inner eyelids, the eye drops four times
each day, the plastic shield over your eye at bedtime.
This surgery
happens to a fragile and vitally necessary part of your body: your eyes!
The
preparation and healing processes are intimidating.
Let's start
with the baby shampoo.
My
directions were to use a clean washcloth, dabbed with baby shampoo, to clean
out the upper and lower inside lids of the eye facing surgery. Ouch!
Doesn't that make you wince just to think about it? One of my friends, a very
wise woman, said, "We spend all our lives trying to keep shampoo out
of our eyes, now they want you to do that – on purpose?"
My partner
graciously agreed to get the baby shampoo for me during a shopping trip. (He is
the shopper in our family, not me. Gender confusion. Another blog post.) He
couldn't find it in the shampoo aisle of the grocery store, and finally took
the closest shampoo he could find – something for children -- up to the
pharmacy. He explained that his wife was having cataract surgery and baby
shampoo was, for some reason, required.
The
pharmacist tried to explain where to find it, then finally took this
silver-haired man across the store to – can you guess? – the baby aisle.
I'm not
gonna lie to you. Poking my eye with baby shampoo stung! Sure it's "no
tears", but it's not meant for direct application into the eyeball. At
least on babies. On us, who are well past being babies, apparently it is.
This is when
I started to regret my hasty decision to have this very ordinary surgery. I
felt as though I was on a lovely, quiet raft trip – my life – and suddenly I
could hear, in the distance, a deep roar. It wasn't the roar of a hundred
helicopters coming to remove me from this ordeal, it was the roar of fast water
falling over a precipice.
Yikes!
What was I
doing?
Then come
the eye drops. Suffice to say that the application of 3 eye drops takes me
about 20 minutes, four times a day, and each eye has its own 30-day eye-drop
chart. It's the type of project that people retire from: close attention to
time, close attention to a chart (talk about paperwork!), and close attention
to teeny, tiny instructions.
Nothing
lasts forever; not cataracts on rivers, and not eye drops after cataract
surgery.
Then there
were the surgeries.
I'm not
gonna lie –again! It was scary for me.
Being in the
surgery center was like that first tip into the rough water. You can see what's
coming, you may know what to expect, but no matter what, you're committed. Will
ye, nill ye, you're going down that river, over that precipice.
As the days
clicked by and the date of the second surgery loomed, I tried to think of ways
to get off that river. Could I throw a terrible tantrum? Well, sure, but who
would be the recipient? My husband? He had faced ignorance and shame in front
of the pharmacist to get me that baby shampoo, so he was invested in this
project moving forward. Maybe I could claim that I caught the flu. However, a
quick glance at my medical chart would show that I had received the flu shot
for this year. Maybe I could just stay in bed that day with the covers pulled
up over my head. But that darn husband of mine was still present and still
invested in my successfully completing this project.
The first
surgery was nerve-wracking, the second just plain frightening. I knew what to
expect, I knew the boulders lying deep under my raft, and I felt adrift.
Everyone at
the surgery center was professional and kind. They even gave me extra
anesthesia the second time. Thank goodness!
I'm two
weeks past the first surgery, one week past the second. Colors are
brighter, but then the whole world is much better looking. I can drive quite
easily at night, not fearing that I will miss seeing a pedestrian. I need
reading glasses to view teeny, tiny print, but not for watching TV.
I'll
probably use reading glasses the rest of my life. Darn it! That's why I got
lasik surgery all those years ago, to end my relationship with glasses.
I believe
that good vision is a gift, and I'm glad I'm past the worst of the rapids and
cataracts of cataract surgery.
Here is the
third definition of cataract: "in mechanics, a hydraulic brake which
regulates or modifies the action of pumping engines and other machines."
I know all
those words, but the meaning … I am cross eyed.
When it's
your turn for cataract surgery, I wish you confidence, great vision at the end,
and excellent anesthesia.